reaching out
when I reach out
only crippling silence
reaches back
and when I gasp for air
there is only ice
inside my lungs
the searing pain
that can’t be doused
can’t be crushed
can’t be burned
can’t be drowned
for the only thing
drowning
is me
and I have lived
through every one
of my darkest nights
but that doesn’t mean
that I want to keep living
through more
when every sunrise
no longer brings hope
and new days
only bring
more pain
pain at the thought
of the aching solitude
that fills
my every day
now that hope
has been ripped away
stolen
right
from
my grasp
though I’ll admit
my grasp was tenuous
at best
but this aching silence
is still unbearable
and the darkest nights
that I
have lived through
before
were nothing
nothing
compared to this
when I reach out
and only silence
reaches back