and even then

even though 

it was you 

sitting next to my hospital bed 

and even though 

it’s still you 

that I can’t get out of my head 

you’re the only one 

who never says 

how are you?

how’s your day?

has the pain 

gone away?

what are you thinking?

what’s on your mind? 

if I opened that door,

can you tell me 

what 

I would find?

even though 

it’s still you 

that I feel so desperate to kiss 

and you’re the one 

on my mind 

who I still so desperately miss 

you still seem to look 

right through me 

where are you 

and why am I 

still alone

when I cry?

why are you always 

a million miles away?

and what will it take 

to get you 

to want 

to stay? 

even though 

you’re the one

who should want to be there for me 

you’ve made it

quite clear 

that it’s the one place 

you don’t want to be